Patience

This post is personal which means I don't pertain to a general topic but to my own story.

"Patience is a virtue" - that's what he will always say.

No one would really want to make a mess with me when I'm sleepy, hungry or stressed. Don't dare talk to me when I'm experiencing these things because I'm at my most fragile place. You don't want to get scold at, hear the words that would hurt you or catch a fight with me.

My boyfriend, as he's one of the most wonderful thing that God has given me, I'm really grateful and happy that God knows who would fit me. Someone who will not leave even at my most fragile moments.

He doesn't complain when I decide for the two of us.

I'm worried that one day he might leave me because of my attitude. I've been so sensitive these past few days/months because of stress (or hungry/sleepy). 

There are times that he can't really decide on his own because he's afraid that I might not like what he wants or that I might think of something worse. He's also afraid when he can't make any decisions because I might get angry. These made him have fear on every word that he says. He's always afraid that we will just fight if he confront me or say something that will piss me off.

If before, I was paranoid because I was thinking worst things that will really not happen in the future, now I'm afraid that I might lose him because he can't tell what he thinks, and he can't express what he feels. He always give me the benefit and even if he can't get enough, he pretends that it really doesn't matter even if it is because HE LOVES ME.

Now that I've realized everything, I must make a solution to this. I'd try to think on what to do and how should I do it.

For the girls out there, if you're lucky just like me to have a man like him, I warn you, DON'T EVER LET GO OF THEM. It's hard to find a man who's very patient, caring, and loving. Someone who will not leave you for the better or for the worse.

Patience is virtue, good thing he believes in this principle.

For me and for the girls, the thing is, CAN YOU MAKE HIM STAY?